a lovely life

I wish I had known you were sick.
I would have visited.
I would have prayed, and prayed, and prayed.
I wish I would have known it would be a short fight.
I would have told you over and over again that I thought you were an awesome guy.
I wish I would have known that 1-4-2003 would be your last day here with us.
I would have hugged you forever that day we ran into each other.
I wish I had been there to say goodbye.

In an instant....I can remember every little thing about you.
I remember your laugh...your smile...your good heart....and your craziness.
I miss you.
and
I'm sorry I wasn't there.